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It is amazing to be how strong you are and how much you are still relying and trusting God. Facing my 6th pregnancy and the idea of loosing another one I have such a hard time talking to God. I am so scared that if I have faith and I believe that things will be okay but loose another child I won't be able to heal the damage it will do to my relationship with God.
You are really amazing. If you have any tips or pointers that have gotten you through everything let me know. I just don't know how you stay so strong.
I hope that you keep posting through your adoption. I would really like to see you get a happy ending.


I am so happy you posted again, and I totally understand that you might not want to blog, but your story is incredibly moving for me, that I was thrilled to see that you had posted again.
I have suffered some miscarriage and ectopic loss, and when I think, what if I lose this one (I'm 7 weeks preg. right now), how could I go on? How could I continue to believe in a God that would let this happen to me? (this from a Sunday School teacher!) I get over myself, and I think about you. You have remained so faithful, so loving through your suffering. Your faith shines through in your post and is some much needed salt and light in blog land. I know you owe nothing to a stranger in Miami, but I would love to share in your hallelujahs when your baby arrives into your arms. I'm praying for you, whether your continue your blog or not, and I am so very thankful for sharing your story with us.

Dawn from the frozen north

Delurking to say that we missed you. As you can see, many of us check in to see if you are around. Thank you for sharing your story with us. Good luck with adoption. We would love it if you would continue to blog, but we also will completely understand if you don't. Take care.


Add me to the list that missed you also...I am so glad your faith has been the one constant for you, I know it's certainly a challenge sometimes, but as you know, God is good and we just have to trust that his plans for you are too. Thank you so much for updating us and whenever you feel like writing again, you know we will be checking on you.


Oh my. What an ordeal! I too had the whole after miscarriage cancer scare last year. It really is adding insult to injury isn't it!? I know how horrible waiting for those levels can be. It's good to hear that you've come through it with your health in tact!

You were missed. Your strength through all that you have been through is truly an inspiration. I hope that you do continue the blog, but if you decide not to it will totally be understood. Best of luck to you!

Lady In Waiting

I hope good times are finally coming your way!!!

And don't sell yourself short - YOU have been at the very center of your survival. Your faith may have helped to keep you centered, but don't discount your strength and resolve to make it through your pain!

In case you choose not to continue your blog, I want to take this opportunity to wish you a lifetime of health and happiness!


Good luck to you and I completely understand about not wanting to blog anymore.

I wish you much luck and hope you do decide to share with us in the future how things go for you.


I don't think I have EVER read/met a woman of faith as you. Despite all counts of adversity from every side, you are still standing. That is such an encouragement to me. I admire you, and I thank God for your candor and your willingness to share your life with strangers. God bless you, and really, good luck with the adoption. I for one can attest, although it took awhile for us to "go there" it was well worth it in the end.


When we endure such heartache it is eventually followed up with a God-moment type experience. It may be the moment you hold your adopted child. Just think - he's letting you PICK your child - What a special opportunity. I hope I am able to do the same one day. God bless.


Jill, I wish you the very best of luck, wherever your path may lead. You remain in my prayers.


All best to you and your family as you transition through this next step, and best wishes on your continued good health.


I stumbled across your blog at a very low point in my life. I had just had my third miscarriage, and I had complications after the D&E that required emergency hospitalization several weeks later. The emotional pain that I felt was so intense that it was actually physical pain - and it was all I could do to go through the motions every day - get up out of bed, go to work, make dinner, etc. In many of your posts, I saw articulated exactly what I was feeling - and I felt like you were a kindred spirit. I tell you this so that you know your blog has touched others and it touched me at a time when I felt very alone.
My husband and I are now in the process of domestic adoption as well. Best wishes to you on your new journey, and I hope that you get your happy ending.
Take care,


I wish very much you would turn this into an adoption blog! Even if it's only to update as (in)frequently as you have been lately.

So often I find a kindred spirit, someone who's been through as much bs as I have, and I never learn "the happy ending." I know there's no such thing. I hope you get what I mean... I'd just like to be invited on the ride a bit longer.

Much health and happiness from now on!


I can't imagine going through all of that at once. Good luck with all the adoption proceedings. I'd hate to have you stop blogging, though.


I am glad you finally updates this blog. When I first came across it, I read from the beginning forward and learned so much about how you handled yourself despite multiple losses. It helped me a lot in dealing with my own loss.

I wish you luck in the adoption process. Here's some advice from someone who used to conduct homestudies, just be yourself, and don't be afraid to ask lots of questions.

I am not sure if you will update this or not, but I will check back periodically.

Good luck!


Your strength and faith are truly such an inspiration.. I've been through 3 miscarriages myself but reading your stories of gentle determination keep me going.. I am blessed to have found your blog
B xxx


Dear Jill
I so completely sympathise with not knowing what to do with your blog - am very much in the same place. As regards the other stuff, I can hardly believe you have been going through even more pain and uncertainty - my heart goes out to you. As you say, what else can you do but go on - there is really no other option - I have felt that so many times when people remark that I have coped with something.

Thinking of you, and if you set up a new blog about the adoption, please let me know where it is, as I would so like to know how you get through. The system in the US is very different from here in the UK, but so many issues are just the same.

I wish you all the best of luck - and from a very personal and selfish point of view, I hope you will not stop posting.

Love to you.


still reading :) and if you do decide to start a blog elsewhere re:adoption adventures, please let us know where you are. i will follow you anywhere! i think i's going to turn out beautifully for you guys. any child, bio-linked or not would be lucky to have you as a mom.


You are a truly 100% inspirational women and i wish you all the luck in the world with your plans on adopting. I'll pray that you WILL have the family you so desire.



Oh Jill, I am so sorry to read about the additional stress and heartache you have had to endure this year.
I am praying for you and your husband, as you officially get started on your adoption journey. We're in the domestic adoption process too, and am always happy to share what I have learned so far.
God bless,


Jill, just thinking of you yesterday on Father's Day. I pray that you sensed God's loving arms were around you and that you could smile remembering Dad.



Hi Jill,
I'm sorry to hear about the cancer scare and relieved that is all it was. Good luck with the adoption! You seem to come out stronger through everything you've had to go through and you will be an amazing mother.
Take care!


Jill: just to tell you I thinked of you and prayed!

Hugs and take care.

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